There is nothing like seeing someone, who hurt you badly, for the first time since the hurt occured. This person, who was my best friend for close to two years, decided one day she just didn't want to call me back. There is history there. She had been pregnant but lost her baby. I was pregnant at the same time. Did that play into it? She claimed that wasn't it a few times but who really knows. She was also going to give me a baby shower. It didn't work out since she never put the date I requested on her calendar or whatever. Maybe that was another reason. I don't know. All I know is that my best friend decided one day to never call me again and it hurt. I had my baby. My mom left. I had no one other than my husband. My salsa friends weren't around at that time since I lost touch with most of them. And really – I had no one else.So last night she came in and at first, acted like we were long lost friends. Uh. Whateva. She talked to me for a couple of minutes and then I think, she got the hint. I had already discussed what I would do with a friend of mine and that helped. I was already prepared to ignore her. So I did.
I could just hear her saying things like "oh, look at her with her friends thinking she's so cool" or "she so shouldn't have worn that shirt – its all sweaty and looks bad. (which was true)" or "She sure needs to lose more weight!" or any other number of things. She would talk bad about anyone and everyone. No one was ever safe so I know I wasn't last night. No matter. I'm over it. She can go to that joint anytime she wants and if I'm there, no problem. She'll just be another person in the bar that I don't know and don't care to know.